intoxication

take lyf as it comes to u..dont expect more just have it ..as it gives u ...huh....i always thought i will live like dis..but never could..i always end up wantin n excepecting more...n wat i get in return is just pain...n nothin else..!Intoxication is on high roll...the room is dark..with only a table light..glowin..at the centre table...the blood red colour some how seems to be golden.....partly concentrated with smoke..the room looked lovely...all i can see...is  a bottle of somewhat rectangular in shape...with some thin written over it....both the widows of the room r locked to prevent the entry of bugs .....the hostel is empty..most of them..has ran our to their homes n the rest to Bangalore..i wit a frnd of mine continue to stay in room 67...mahatma gandhi 1ce said alcohol is not the answer to the questions ...dis was contradicted by vijya malya who said alcohol is surely not the answer to question but it surely makes u forget the question..(at least for sometime.:)....once that liquid runs down my throat..i feel some how it burnt it..but the fellin after it is fuckin awesome.....everythin in fornt of my eyes ..just begins to move...clockwise....i turned anti clockwise just to keep them straight..but it didnt worked.....my hand only knows wat m writing....coz my mind doesnt register dese things...a strong smells of gold flake tickled my nose..the thoughts..i kept down in my hrt..stoned down suddenly pricks my mind....i can fell a drop of water down my cheek..the warmth of the water...some hows gives me a coolin effect coz of the temp outside..!...i hear a long whistle .....somewhere....in our campus..!..the dogs have lost their mind..!..keeps on yelling..out....a few of them even barks....while the rest cries..my phone...kepps on glowin at regular interval..show the incomin of a call..but i m not in the state of pickin it..if i get up form bed..the next instance will be in the ground..witout any kind of clue  how i got their..!!...memories of ..my school creeps down my mind..!..those..long lectures dat we bunked ..!..those long sleeps in the last benches..!!...my meeting s that got cancelled.!,,more  a peg down...i cant feel anythin..!!....my hand seems senseless..!!,,my mind seems...mindless..!!i miss home...i miss my frnds ..i miss...those autos...which took me to tolly..i miss the v3..where i had a few best times of my life...the blue colour of blue banana//!...somehow...pulls me to it..!the monotonous..!playlist of china whites repels me frm it ..!..i miss the long adda in ju..!n the long walks in the lake..!!...as i see now...!i see i go down with two more pegs..!..n still sit n go on writing..!..someone outside..is knocking the door..!..Though m least interested to know..! a sip of marijuana...somehow brought back life in me..!!..i can see..a white light...!..may be its the main source if power what we call as god..!..lyf is a humdrum of affairs..!..a lot of things take place around u ..when u r asleep..!!..if u want to know all the things lyf would become..too ...tough n impossible to live...!..man i  m stoned..!!!