lost n found

Tik-tok..tik-tok…the time was running..in its own way……wit no signs of stopping..!...i was waitin..at the bus stop waitin for the others..its was 6 in the moring..a black travel bag was lying beside me..i looked up at my dad….when will every one come?!>>?>.i asked wit curious eyes..!n anxiously waited till I saw my best frnd running..towards me..he came up…with a smile n a look as if he had a lot of things to share..soon the place was crowded …we were asked to board the bus..we did as we r asked..!..soon the bus was filled n were ready to go..!i waved my parents…n the bus on the streets..Ready to roll..

Yes..i was goin on a trip..with my frnds..my school organized dis trip..it was 3 days trip…i was in class 3..n the first time I was in a trip without my parents..!..me with my 3 frnds…debraj..rahul…swagato…were together on this trip..!....me..was a little..scared..exited...never knew wat was cumin for me…!

We were sitting together…n thus..got..only one  window seat..so we got the window turn by turn..luckily I was the first one to sit first…soon I had to go to the other end..n give my frnds a chance..i was doin something..wen suddenly..a sweet voice..called me from the back..hey..is that your bag??>>…I turned around…n to my astonishment it was a gal..!..ya…I answered..!..it  looks gud she replied..!...dats brought a  big smile on my face..!..he he ….she showed me hers..!..n told dats mine..!....i soon figured it out dat she was not frm our skul..she was actually the daughter of a teacher who was accompanying us….that was the last talk we had dat day..!..soon we reached our destination..!MURSHIBADAB….!..we got down the bus wit our bags..n moved to the dormitory..!..i

It was a big hall..!wit beds lined up..on both the sides..we did as were instructed..the gals on one side n boys on the other..!..we took possession of our beds..n settled ourselves…the teachers stayed in a different room..!n were all alone here..!...it was really exciting..!:P..we changed..n were ready for lunch..!..den adda followed ..but really…my mind was not the place..i was noticing the gal..wit whom I had a conversation in the bus..she moved very close to me..some how I felt dat even she was noticing me…i managed to moved out of the place..n as my predictionweer right… she moved out of the room after me..i was scared I ran ….she ran after me..i came down the stairs n hid myself in the meter room..she found me..came..hold me by my hands..n whispered in my ears.. I LOVE U…I was stunned…I stood there silent..n slowly went up..n found her playin other gals at the end of the room..i sat down my my frnds..n stared at her…she was of my height…a little dark from skin..with beautiful eyes..those dreamy eyes looked up at me..i was speechless..in the evenin…I called up my parents to inform them abt my safe journey..!dat nit I couldn’t sleep…I thought abt her….night long..

The next day in the morning..we were gearing up coz we had to coz we had to do a lot of sight seeing….i waited in a long queue dat..led to the bathroom..finally got my chance..took a nice bath..a was ready to go out when there was knock at the door..i opened it…it was her…she pushed me in…n herself got in..n again…whispered those words in my ears n left..!..by dis act..everyone..figured dat something was cookin in between..!wen I entered the dormitory..i saw her standing..n everyone’s eyes were upon me..shit..i told to myself…my friends came up..started teasing me..i had a nice tym watchin the places I only read in my history book…it was really fascinating..in the late afternoon we returned for lunch..!..i tried to keep myself away from her ..when ever I was alone…she came after me..i ran..just to hide from her..i didn’t know wat she meant by dat..all I knew was dat..at that point of tym..it was STAY AWAY FRM GIRLS..so it was either frnds or her..:P..!...in the evenin…the lights went of..n we wit our torches..created a disco out there..ppl showed their talents..i stood in 1 corner coz ..i did not have any…!.....i only noticed her starin at me….later the light came ..n we went for dinnr…at night…while we were jumpin in our beds..she came..up to my bed…pulled me up..n took me to the centre of the room..i was speechless…den again whispered those word in my ears..i ran …as fast as I could….out the door n went up the stairs..i saw her searchin for me..failin…she went to slp wit her mom..i silently went back to my bed..

The next day we were abt to leave…we took all our belongings..n boarded the bus…I took the last seat..n sat quiet..finally we reached..back..it was almost evenin…every one went home…except me..my parents we still not there to pick me up…she stood beside me…I still remember…dat was the first time i saw a gal cryin..tears rolled own her cheeks….i was abt to speak..wen I heard my dad’s bike cumin….i went up to them..got up the bike…some how I wanted to wave her goodbye…but..couldnt..

With tym..i forgot abt the incident..but past haunts us..wen I understood the meaning of love I started searchin for her…I tried hard..every possible ways I did…n one day I found her…n luckily…today..we r good frnds…..

I know u will be readin dis…….so…just wanna say…thank u…..!!!

silence prevails

Silent prevailed in my room..!.for sometime..!!..just .like..arrow breaks through wind..!..a call of a bird..!..broke the silence.!!..i felt at  ease….!!..only sound in my room was dat off my processor..!..n the keys of the.keyboard  ..!.i can hear a faint voice..!comin from a distance.!!..it may someone singing..!or the prayer at a mosque..!my silent mobile..lightens up..at regular interval..showing the notification of a massage..!a unknown bird..calls continuously..may be..in search..!of its loved ones..!..wen I look out side the window..!!..i  see a reddish horizon..!..waitin..!for the sun.!..the trees r standin straight..!the leaves doesn’t even move a inch..!...some where..far I can see a Street lamp..lightened up..!..sometimes…a lizard..calls out..may be..tellin dat wat ever m thinkn is rite..a koel bird..sometimes calls out..!..the…beautiful call sooths my ear again.. the sky is no slowly turnin..greyish..!..!...

I went up to my verandah..!

The feelin..of the morning..!..ran through my spine.!!..!..the sky is lited up wit 3 differnet colurs..shades of blue..white n red..!i can see a dog sleepin..soundly..!in the road.!..a small red light..caught my view..!..it may be..a telephone tower..!..the monotonous…sound of the mosquitoes..is creatin  an unwanted..music near my ears…!i treid to..listen the calls of the birds..n understand…what they r tryin to say..!.some figured out..!..that cries out of pain..n some out of happiness..!..!...some cries..out of anger..n some..tells it to calm down..!..their r some bird.who  cries...to let the others know..dat a human is awake at dis point of tym..!!..!..the sky is now totally blue..!somehow..!..its feels the startin of a new day..!..!..its is really..impossible..to blive..!dat dis..silent environment turns out to be a commotion..at the end of the day..!

i m alone !

Never really gave a thought dat wat I would make up wit my life..!Now when I sit n think abt something. it generally reminds me of all the wrong dat I have done. in my life…it reflects back to me..!n give me the result..!Some how I feel Newton’s third law is applicable to this.Each n every thin I do ..comes back to me..wit a opposite force..the way I have hurt ppl..maybe..I get the same back..!in some way of the other..!..Sometimes ppl asks me..wat do I do stayin awake at nit..but..i m unable to answer.!..trust I have no idea wat I do..!Sometimes I sit silent..Sometimes...look at a the wall blank..or may be stare at the computer screen ..n after sometimes realize that..i was silent may be for an hour..but..never thought..dat..!..i would make dis wit my life..now when I sit..i recollect each n every past events in my life..those events..i try to forget but somehow they keep ..Haunting me..!..Telling me..” I m ur past its impossible to forget me”..The more I try to forget the more situations make me remember them. .!

Was quite small wen I joined my first skul..!..VMS the school dat taught me everythin..!dat I m.!.it gave me everything dat I have.!! But it took away ..a lot of things..!dat I didn’t want to loose..but had to.!..it gave me my best frnd..wit whom I rarely talk now..it showd me how frnds can betray u..!..how my frnds betrayed me..!but ..i didn’t stop lovin anyone..!..or..trustin anyone..!..I class 9..16th sept..i took the sip of vodka..!May dat was sum experience..!..the world goin round.!..or is it me.!i could see the Victoria memorial..Upside down.!..!those frnds who accompanied me..then..doesnt even call me 1ce.still I sit back..n think abt them.!.now if by chance I meet them..i can feel that they have moved on..Somewhere…may be..They didn’t ever accept me..as theirs.!..somehow I lost them..!ppl come n go ..in your life..it is u ..who have to be..Practical abt it..!dis truth..my parents told me..long back now ..i understand the meaning of it.!!...it was class 9..wen I felt the first taste of bunking..!..those days were really something to remember n to cherish..!..still miss those hard benches..where we used to sit..that small classroom..where..in the hot n sultry afternoon the teacher shouted ..to their voices…9B the not notorious class in skul..i sat back n enjoyed.!.!.never really thought dat these day really would cum to n end.!.that 1 games period ..in a week..!made us eagerly wait for it.!..!running around the cemented filed…skinning our knees ..shouting kho….wow…!dat was something.!..things changed later..the only frnd I had some how turned their back on me.!..i felt alone..i cried all nit..may be for the loss of a frnd or understandin that wat my parents told me..turned out t be true.!..!..days felt like weeks..!..still had to move on..! n so I did..!changed my skul..!.....thing were new out here..!new friends.!.new everything..!..i felt a relief..!..somehow..!...my past didn’t coincide wit my ..present..!...but..ya I was worng..it did…!wen I came..it whispered in my ears..!..”me aint leaving u.” …rumor…is a grt traveler..!n it was..!....it spread..!like anything…..but I some how managed ..to put the things in the track..tried to find the root of this..was not at all surprised dat ..it was my on friends ..or so called frnds..i felt the need to e alone…I tried but failed..New frnds entered my life..somehow..i mixed up wit them..!...hangin out…chattin..all continued full fledged .! ..my frnds didn’t betry me..!...but now….!...even wit 450 contacts may be more than a thousand frnds ..surrounding…!today ..somehow…I feel LONELY…I FEEL M AGAIN..BETRAYED..I HAVE AGIN LOST MY DIRECTION..DONT KNOW ..WHERE M LEADIN TO.!